I am 29 years old and have been married twice. He was only 22 when he first entered the marriage hall. At that time, marriage was like a big honey pot for me. Even the breath I breathed was sweet and greasy. My ex-husband should be a man who can score high for many girls. He is 1.78 meters tall, white and fresh, and has a good job. He has been a department manager of a communications company since he was 27 years old. What moved me most was that he loved me very much and would hug me and kiss me from time to time. One of my girlfriends said that it was a blessing from my previous life.
Nobody would have expected that I would break up with a man with such high marks the year before last. People say that marriage has a seven-year itch, but we only have five years. I'm really sad. Because I didn't expect my ex-husband to cheat on me.
Although I know that nowadays, cheating in marriage is not rare, and there are many reasons for it. But I just can't understand why my ex-husband cheated. His love for me is sincere, and his praise of my beauty and my gentleness is also sincere. So why would he be attracted to another woman? That woman is no better than me.
It was his mobile phone that leaked the secret of his ex-husband's cheating. That day, he took a nap at home and went to work. He forgot to take his mobile phone. On the way to work, I remembered that there was a document that should be taken to the unit, so I turned back home. After I found that my ex-husband forgot to bring his mobile phone, I was going to take a detour to send it to him. I also wanted to have fun with him first and call his office with his mobile phone. His phone has a caller ID, which will tell him that it is his own mobile phone.
As soon as I opened my closed mobile phone, a text message was displayed on my mobile phone and shot into my eyes like a bullet: Hao, do you really feel that good with me? I am really satisfied.
I sat down on the bed, my heart sank to the freezing point, and my mind was blank. At this time, the ex-husband came back in a hurry. He came back to pick up his mobile phone. At the sight of my appearance, I was stunned for a moment. I quickly took my mobile phone and my voice trembled. Come and ask me what's wrong. I kept silent, and tears fell down. The ex-husband looked at the text message on his mobile phone, and the wooden ground clubbed to one side.
Neither of us went to work that afternoon. The ex-husband admitted his infidelity, but he didn't say why he made mistakes. He only promised not to deal with that woman again and begged me to forgive him. I never spoke, just kept crying.
I can't forgive him. I can't hold a grain of sand in my eyes. In front of my ex-husband, I was cold and silent, especially in bed. He wanted to do marital affairs with me, and I also looked like a puppet, because when I thought of him and that woman, I felt the blood around me became cold.
Finally, my ex-husband also got cold. He consciously separated himself from me while sleeping in bed, and basically did not ask for marital affairs. They dare not look at me at home in the daytime. They are like strangers. Half a year later, I couldn't stand it and decided to divorce.
I cried the day I went through the divorce procedure. I said to my ex-husband, "Maybe I'm too much, but I can't help it. I just want to ask, why do you do that?" My ex-husband also shed tears, but never answered me.
The current husband sees the clue
The second marriage was introduced last winter. I still hesitated at first. Marry a man ten years older than me? The introducer enlightened me that men who are much older than themselves will be considerate. He also said that the man's previous wife often praised her husband in front of others and always looked happy. Unfortunately, she didn't follow her husband to the end and was killed by a car accident.
Facts have proved that this remarried husband is really considerate and can say "take good care of me". My husband's body is really good, and he is always energetic. Even when he is doing husband and wife work in bed, he is obviously stronger than my ex-husband. But my confusion also appeared under my husband's strength.
In fact, my husband was confused first, of course, he pretended to be careless. After a matter was over and calmed down, he lay beside me, still holding me with one hand, and asked me softly, "Are you satisfied with me?" I snuggled in his arms and said with emotion, "I think you are too good, but I'm afraid you are not satisfied with me." He paused for a while, He said, "I also want to ask, just about this, do you think I can satisfy you?" I buried my face in his chest and said, "You are a full man." He paused for a while, and his voice became lighter: "But I never let you reach an orgasm." I squeezed his chest with my hand and said, "I am not always intoxicated? That is the climax." He did not say anything, but only hugged me with his hands.
In the next few days, I often thought of my husband's questions, and gradually felt uneasy. Is it because I make him feel different from his former wife in matters of husband and wife
Sure enough, I asked my husband again and again one night, and he said the difference. His former wife reached orgasm almost every time when she was doing marital affairs with him, and always shook like an electric shock when she reached orgasm. My husband then comforted me, saying that people are different. Maybe it is his reason that makes me have an orgasm rarely.
My uneasiness intensified. Since my first marriage, I have never experienced the kind of orgasm that can make me feel like an electric shock. I have never trembled. In this growing unease, I suddenly remembered the text message in my ex-husband's mobile phone. The woman said, "Do you really feel that good with me..."
Could it be that my ex-husband's cheating also has my reasons? It is a question whether to pack or not.
I did a thousand things that surprised me. I went to the third party who seduced my ex-husband to cheat. I told her that I didn't hate her any more. I just hope she can tell me how good my ex-husband said to her at the beginning, and whether "good" is what I don't have. She hesitated for a while and told me: "At the beginning, when he said that he felt good with me, I asked him whether he felt bad with his wife? He refused to answer."
She then asked me, "Are you not satisfied with him in your husband and wife's life?" I said blankly, "No? We are all very engaged. But I have never felt the same feeling as electric shock." She looked at me carefully and said, "That's an orgasm. Have you never had an orgasm?" I shook my head. She pondered for a moment and said, "Some men may value women's orgasm. Without this orgasm, he will feel that he has not got the most from his efforts." I was silent and pondered her words for a long time.
I'm a little grateful to the woman who ruined my first marriage. She let me find my problem. I have to pay attention to this problem. I can't let my remarried husband regret me. I have to let him get the most from me.
I decided to even pretend to have an orgasm.
Of course, you should pretend to be like, and don't make your husband suspicious. When I do married things, I will whisper to my husband: Don't worry, take it easy, I will have an orgasm. My husband comforted me in turn: Don't worry, it doesn't matter if you don't have an orgasm, but I will try to do it longer. When my husband did more than the past time, I held him tightly and shook for a while. At this time, my husband also became fierce, and I could see that he had reached the peak.
I can see that my "climax" made my husband obviously show great satisfaction, and his kindness to me moved me even more. But I was also more uneasy. To be honest, the longer I work with my husband, the more uncomfortable I feel. But how can I pretend to have an orgasm soon? I don't know if I want to keep pretending about this "climax"? '
(Intern editor: Cai Junyi)