Post Date April, 15 2023
Liu Meng said that she has fallen in love with her friend's husband. At first, this was a secret between the two of them. However, a week ago, almost everyone around us knew this big secret!
I'm so bored... I really dare not go out and meet people... I wish there was a crack on the ground and I could get in. "These are all true portraits of Liu Meng these days. Apart from occasionally sleeping in a daze and not wanting these troubles, she still has to face them the rest of the time.
Now, she hates herself very much. Why didn't she control herself and do such a thing?
Tianda's secret has been exposed
March 27th, Friday. I watched a movie with Xu Yang at the Asian Trade Center. This is what he put forward, saying that we haven't been romantic together for a long time. Actually, this is not called romance, it's about playing with the excitement of the heartbeat. He is the husband of my best friend Chen Ying. We have been secretly together for more than two years, and we knew from the beginning that such a thing was very dangerous. However, I don't know what mentality led us to not be able to completely separate.
We all live in Hankou and go all the way to Wuchang, but we don't want to meet acquaintances. The more afraid you are, the easier it is for something to happen. At around 1 o'clock in the afternoon, after watching the movie, we came out to eat. As soon as we sat down at a small restaurant, someone called out his name: "Kidnapper, long time no see, what are you busy with?" Xu Yang turned around and saw that it was his wife's classmate's husband.
What a coincidence. He immediately sat down and chatted with them for a while. As an old man, he even introduced me to others and said he would do something in Wuchang this morning. I nodded and smiled at the man. The other party asked us to sit over and eat together, but I couldn't help but move the chair across from him. I felt awkward and a bit flustered, but Xu Yang remained calm.
I was very nervous and uneasy about that meal. After bidding farewell to that man, I said to Xu Yang, "How did you meet an acquaintance today?" He looked helpless and said, "You should be more cautious in the future." After a long time, my emotions slightly eased, so I discussed going to Optics Valley Pedestrian Street with him.
Now I deeply regret my bad idea. I thought it was impossible to meet acquaintances on Optics Valley Pedestrian Street again. I held Xu Yang's arm and happily reveled in the joy I had stolen. As the saying goes, being proud and forgetting oneself. As a result, we bumped into the man who had lunch together again. He stared at us in surprise and only said, 'It's really fate.' Then he disappeared and left us foolish on the street.
I don't remember what I was thinking at the time, I just felt like my secrets were suddenly revealed. I asked Xu Yang what to do, but he remained silent. The good mood a few minutes ago dissipated in an instant. Finally, he said, "Let's take the car back to Hankou separately." I nodded, tears already flowing in my eyes. Why is your luck so bad?
But I still have a lucky mentality, thinking that this matter won't be known by his wife, my best friend Chen Ying. The result is that this is impossible. On the night Xu Yang returned home, Chen Ying fell out with him. I don't know what she did, but in the end, she found out it was me and immediately called me, cursing me in the most unpleasant way.
I didn't fight back, dare not, let alone lack the confidence. Because this matter was really my fault, I didn't expect to get so deeply involved that I would treat my friend's husband as my last straw to save my life.
A woman whose marriage is not satisfactory
In marriage, I am a woman who has been hurt and I know the feeling of being hurt by my husband. My ex husband is an idle and idle man. He enjoys indulging in extravagance, playing cards and gambling, and has hardly considered his family. When I was young, I thought he was just playful and would change as he grew older, but from getting married to our divorce, he never changed.
My ex husband is really this kind of person. I used to work in the factory, but my efficiency declined and I had to come out to work. There is no money at home to buy rice or oil. He is not in a hurry and even asked me to cook delicious food for him when he comes back. I said he had no conscience, but instead he blamed me for not fulfilling my responsibilities as a woman. Anyway, he's right. He should live a life of eating, drinking, and playing.
If that's all, I might not have divorced him yet. The main reason is that he is so weak and incompetent that he is still playing with women outside, and he is looking for people from street leisure shops. Ask him, he still spoke up and said, "This is such a cheap and cost-effective way." I was so angry with him that I was about to vomit blood. How could I have met such a man myself!
In those years, I had a very difficult time and often told my troubles to my best friend Chen Ying. She and Xu Yang are a loving couple, and I envy them very much. When I encountered difficulties, they gave me a lot of help. I don't remember how many times, after being beaten by my husband, I called them and cried out. They immediately took a taxi to comfort me and verbally educated my husband.
Really, I have caused them a lot of trouble. Chen Ying has said for a long time that a man like my husband would have dumped him if she had. Why don't I want to? But when I think of my daughter, I always find it difficult to hold onto this heart, feeling that it would harm her. Later on, Chen Ying no longer advised me like this, but encouraged me to be independent and come out to do business. I don't have any money. She lent me a loan, which was really heartfelt to me.
In 2005, I made the most correct decision of my life and divorced my husband. Although he tried many ways to stop it, I remained resolute and almost agreed to all his unreasonable demands, finally regaining my freedom. I am very grateful to Chen Ying and Xu Yang for pulling me out of the mud of my marriage. I always buy a gift for them during holidays to express my gratitude.
In 2006, I took out a loan to buy a house, and Xu Yang spared no effort to help me with the renovation. The subtle feeling between me and him was generated during those two months. Afterwards, I was very regretful. Why did I have such thoughts towards my benefactor? It's really difficult to explain emotional matters clearly. When facing him, my heart beats faster, and I know I'm done. I can't face him calmly in the future.
How to clean up the mess
Now, I really hate that damn rainy night. Xu Yang got drunk outside and accidentally called me. In fact, he should have called Chen Ying, but he called the wrong number. He treated me like Chen Ying, saying he was drunk and couldn't go home, and he was already lying on the road.
It was raining cats and dogs outside at that time. Thinking that he had already been soaked through, I was very worried and immediately took a taxi to rush over. Seeing his drunken appearance, I felt heartbroken and quickly picked him up and took him back to my own home. His clothes are already wet, but it's really a hassle to change them for him. But not changing is definitely not feasible, so I had to force myself to do this awkward thing.
I really didn't know what to do when he was stripped down to his shorts by me. There is no man in my family, so naturally there is no suitable clothes for him to wear. I had to let him lie down under the blanket first. But he can't keep lying down, he still has to go home. And if I call Chen Ying to pick him up, I'm afraid there might be a misunderstanding. At that time, I was really in a dilemma. I had to wait for him to wake up a bit before sending him back.
At around 12 o'clock at night, he seemed to wake up a bit and asked me where he was. I said it's at my house, and then I brought him the warm ginger cola to drink. He only took a sip and grabbed my hand, then pulled me into his arms. This surprised me too much and left me unprepared.
I have struggled before, but failed. In the end, we were together. Afterwards, I felt embarrassed and regretful, and he said the same thing, but at this point, everyone's thoughts changed and he cared more about me than ever before. I know I should refuse, but I don't. Later on, I often blame myself and my emotions are very complex and contradictory.
Xu Yang is the husband of my best friend Chen Ying. I have always been aware of this fact, but due to greed, I was unable to grasp it well. If after that unexpected mistake, we can maintain a positive attitude and distance, perhaps nothing will happen, but we are all immersed in it, and in the past two years, we must have at least one solitary tryst a month. We were tacit and never mentioned Chen Ying when we were together. We avoided her in order to alleviate our respective guilt.
Liu Meng let out a long sigh.
On March 29th, after the matter was exposed, Chen Ying asked me to come out to see her. I dare not, but I still saw you. I kept my head down, letting her scold me. It was indeed my fault, and I had no right to retaliate against her. She kept asking me why I had to do this, crying very sad, so to speak, heartbroken. She suffered double betrayal, one being her favorite husband and the other being me, who she regarded as a sister.
Those more than three hours were too difficult to endure. I don't know how I managed to survive, I'm really on pins and needles. I heard that after that day, she was bedridden. Actually, she has always been in good health, but this time, she collapsed! I want to go see her, but I have no face, and seeing me will only make her feel even more painful.
Xu Yang has also disappeared in the past few days. He left no message for anyone and suddenly disappeared. I deeply regret what happened to her happy little home. This is definitely not my intention, but such terrible consequences have already occurred, I really don't know how to end it. I used to think that if something happened one day, it would definitely cause a storm in the city, but I didn't expect this day to come. I really hate myself and want to slap myself, but what's the use of this? Can we keep everything from happening?
(Intern Editor: Cai Junyi)
