Zhang Juan, a Beijing girl, recently encountered something that made her feel unable to extricate herself. She didn't know whether she really became gay or not, so all of the tangles, contradictions, pain... suddenly rushed forward, and Zhang Juan suddenly became confused about what to do.
Zhang Juan, who graduated from a key university in Beijing in 2007, is currently the business director of a multinational company. When Zhang Juan was in college, many boys pursued her because of her excellent grades and outstanding abilities. However, at that time, she believed that her goal should not be hindered by love, so she had never set foot in love.
After joining the work, she has achieved outstanding performance and is surrounded by excellent men. Zhang Juan has also had a favorable impression on these excellent men, but with a strong personality, she cannot make herself actively pursue men. At the same time, perhaps her achievements in the company are too outstanding, and none of the men she sees as excellent actually pursue her.
In fact, Zhang Juan's heart is very eager to have a love life. At that time, she was very lonely, and she needed someone to relieve the pain of loneliness with her.
To her surprise, a few months later, it was not a man who approached him, but a girl as excellent as her. At first, she didn't know that the girl approached her for "love", but only knew that during her contact with the girl, she felt a kind of meticulous care and friendship. However, after gradually developing into skin kissing and homosexual behavior, the strong men in this career have fallen into real life difficulties. She began to doubt her behavior and suspected that she had become a homosexual.
Although Zhang Juan's behavior is very similar to homosexual behavior, from the perspective of her physical or psychological needs, it is only a transitional pseudohomosexual. This group of people have many things in common: After entering puberty, their internal sexual drive and desire for love instinct make them restless and restless, but due to various reasons, such as marriage failure, or the awakening of sexual consciousness, the strong impulse of internal sexual desire, and the accompanying physical and psychological reactions, they have to control this internal impulse and must take cover up behavior.
However, when suppressing primitive impulses but not being able to achieve sublimation, they chose a lifestyle similar to homosexuality and transcended the more acceptable forms of friendship, resulting in physical intercourse that embraced, kissed, touched, and even imitated homosexuality, in order to meet the physical and psychological needs of loving and being loved.
When people are confused by desires and anxieties, they will enter the "edge" of homosexuality due to their eagerness to establish intimate relationships with others in order to escape emotional loneliness. Being troubled by this unstable and socially unacceptable relationship, homosexuals tend to suffer even more.