Post Date April, 15 2023
The company is not very prosperous, and wages and benefits are not high. However, at that time, the leaders still attached great importance to the March 8th Festival. On this day, they would take the time to hold a tea flower party specifically for our female compatriots: expressing greetings, expressing concern, discussing work, and having a good time at home. At first, some special girls were very "38" and didn't want to participate, feeling embarrassed. But for women like us who have become families, we believe that they have a unique sense of pride and are delighted and relieved to receive a "small gift" after the meeting.
In fact, married women do not care much about how their work is spent on March 8th, even if the law stipulates a half day off. Actually, what matters more is the consideration and concern from my husband. Although the status of women is constantly improving, in traditional families, they are still not free from the kitchen. It seems natural and natural that women should still do household chores. Men complain about their wives, but they don't really take action. Instead, they are sweet mouthed men who often make women work harder. Even if they pretend to go to the kitchen, their wives won't let them do it.
Every decent woman has such a consensus. Even if life is a bit difficult and tiring, it's nothing. As long as you live comfortably and smoothly, it's true happiness. However, this happiness is not dominated by oneself. If men determine a woman's emotions, it's not an exaggeration.
I am destined not to be happy on March 8th this year. Even if the company gave us a 1000 yuan supermarket shopping card with a welfare package one day in advance, it didn't bring me any excitement. I said, a woman's mood is regulated by a man. Just because it's annoying, it's still up to you and your family. Emotions are the backbone of a woman's life.
Last week, I entered the nanny's room. At her bedside, I accidentally saw a brand of sanitary napkins and pads, which were very expensive and I had never been willing to buy them. I asked her curiously? I said you young people are really wasteful. How much did you pay for it? She hesitated, unable to say the price. What am I saying? Didn't you buy it? Who gave it to you? Got a boyfriend? She blushed instantly with shame. The 19-year-old girl, when asked this question, was at a loss and incoherent. I felt something strange at the time.
Later, when my husband returned home at night, I quietly told him about it. I said, Ping Yaya (nanny's nickname) uses ordinary pads for a few yuan, but this time I found out that she actually uses big brands? I don't know who sent it. My husband reacted fiercely before I finished speaking. He immediately scolded me for meddling and talking about the little girl's affairs, so don't ask too much. He also said that if you want to use it well, you can buy it yourself, and it's not that you can't afford it.
It wasn't much at first. After I said it, I forgot. But just yesterday, when I was flipping through my husband's wallet, I pulled out a shopping ticket from the interlayer, which immediately left me speechless. There were actually many snacks, underwear, and the sanitary napkin used by the little nanny. I felt like I had been electrocuted and felt like the sky was about to collapse, as the end of the world had already arrived early on.
Am I being paranoid? Who did he give away the things he bought? But I didn't get anything? Did he pick up a small ticket and put it in his bag? Obviously, I am trying my best to deny the truth.
I don't want to think so badly of him. After 20 years of marital love, I have always trusted him. He has always been at ease in my heart. His children have already gone to college, and if something ugly happens, won't he blush? Is it just giving nannies these "items"? What is he drawing? Or what has already happened? In 20 years, he hasn't given me such a romantic experience. Why should he waste it on the nanny? Is he so kind?
Can I confirm this with him and tear his face? If I had been ten years ago, I might have gone crazy and insisted on making a dog dog restless with him and causing a huge uproar. But I'm old, do I still have this leisure? I can't afford to lose this person, this face, and I have to swallow my anger for my son. My child is about to marry a daughter-in-law, am I going to divorce again?
I can only think about the benefits of this matter, can only numb myself, and can only quietly dismiss the nanny. But this scar in my heart has already formed, and time cannot wash it away. How can you make me feel comfortable and content? This 38th Festival is destined for me to have a "38th" one.
(Intern Editor: Lai Jiaxing)
