The only regret my girlfriend had for me at that time was that she couldn't give me her first night, and there was inevitably a bit of emptiness in her heart. I always feel a bit regretful after having sex with her, so I often ask myself, is a virgin really like what is said in the book? What would it feel like having sex with a virgin? I asked my girlfriend, asked my girlfriend, and the answer was surprisingly the same - a bit painful, a bit bloody. Normally, my virgin dream should also wake up. After all, finding a virgin in this open city of Nanjing is not as easy as earning tens of thousands of yuan. I dream of my virginity every day.
But from that day on, I experienced being a virgin. You want to ask me how I feel? The regret of a virgin is gone, replaced by endless guilt. I know, I was wrong again.
That day, the company had just finished the last order and was discussing with friends from two other companies where to go for HAPPY tonight. My phone rang, and it was a familiar shampoo shop owner who called and said there was a pretty good lady who asked me to come over and take a look. Anyway, there's no activity, go ahead!
That's a shampoo room next to Huafu Garden on Fujian Road. As soon as we entered, the thief lady smiled and offered us a seat. In fact, I really dislike her. She has helped so many pairs of dog men and women. But I really can't miss her, and I know in my heart that her hypocrisy is only interested in the things in our pockets.
Xiao Wang! Come out for a moment
A very ordinary girl, only perceiving her figure in the dim light, at most sixteen or seventeen years old, dressed in a very fashionable way. (Miss has seen too much, average, uninteresting. I started looking left and right.) "Xiao Zhu, come here and have a word with you." The landlady mysteriously pulled me to the small room behind me. This girl said it's her first time in a month, only washing and massaging customers' hair. She just won't go out. I've been taking care of her for a month, and today I finally let go, but I'm not sure if she's older. Why don't you give it a try with your friends
What price? "(Actually, I didn't give up hope for a girl like that for the first time)
Don't talk about money. If it's true, you'll give it to me. If it's fake, you'll do me a favor. I don't want to keep it for nothing anymore
Perhaps it was the sincerity of the landlady who moved me, or perhaps I still had some illusions about virgins, holding the attitude of being a dead horse and a living horse doctor. I decided to give it a try. I took out two thousand yuan to the landlady and said, 'Let's count it back!'
The hotel in Nanjing has been very strict during this period of time. I took her to a bathroom near the Confucius Temple, owned by a friend, and the environment was decent.
Wait for me in 201 after finishing
I directly requested a private room from the bar, took a towel, and went to wash it first.
When I finished washing and arrived in the private room, she was already waiting for me, not changing her pajamas, but still wearing her own clothes. She looked at me with a strange look, and I knew she must be curious about such a young client like me. She must also be curious about how the fierce landlady could be so gentle in front of me.
You don't have a girlfriend
What do you think? Of course there is. "(I noticed that her feet were so white, and her shyness made me a bit dizzy.)
Is it your first time
Her small face turned crimson. I saw how beautiful her hands were
I don't know what to say, the scene became a bit awkward due to my surprise. So he rang the bell and called the waiter to turn on the TV. I ordered a drink and some snacks. I started to find some topics to chat with her. (At that time, I began to realize that she was a virgin.)
……
I know she is from Chengdu, Sichuan. She is 17 years old and her parents have divorced. I started wandering around at the age of 15. I have done all kinds of work. It's very hard, but I can't make any money. This time, I'm planning to be a Miss for two years and then go back to my hometown to do some business.
Why not wear pajamas? Isn't that uncomfortable
She may have misunderstood my meaning, spread out the blanket, got in, and started taking off her clothes. Take each piece off the blanket one by one. After taking off, she turned her face towards the wall and her back towards me.
I was a bit overwhelmed by her actions. But besides imitating her movements, I don't know what to do. After I took off my clothes, I turned off the light. She crawled awkwardly into her blanket.
In the darkness, I could feel the elasticity and smoothness of her skin. When my fingers touched her body, I could feel her trembling. When I started kissing her, her hands tightly hugged me. Her legs were tightly clenched. I didn't even know where to put my legs. I began to notice a slight feeling for her.
I put in a lot of effort to teach her how to do it, and when I entered her body, I finally knew what a virgin was. It is this difference that has truly taught me what purity is. Watching her white teeth tightly biting her lower lip, watching her tears rolling in her eyes. I couldn't help but slow down my movements, as I gradually entered and she gradually dodged upwards. I grabbed her shoulder to prevent her from moving. I stopped my activities. In her ear, she whispered to her, "Is it very painful?" She didn't answer, just nodded, tears finally dripping from her eyes. I can see her pain.
She didn't learn where to put her legs by the end, and I tried my best to quickly end this dirty union. There wasn't much pleasure, but that short ten or so minutes still make my memory fresh to this day. Although I am still eager, I still don't have the courage to ask for anything more from her. At night, I held her in my arms and fell asleep, feeling so beautiful. I imagined her as my girlfriend. Fantasy my girlfriend becoming pure.
The next morning, when I woke up, she was already awake, lying in my arms and not daring to move. I saw that her eyes were beautiful, and I began to take a good look at her. I want to remember her appearance. Keep it in my heart.
I'll find you a job? I'll work at my company for 3000 a month. Don't do this anymore. (I know I just want to make up for it)
No, you're fine, thank you! Forget about me, don't come to me again in the future, okay
I am at a loss
I will remember you
I will too
I suddenly saw a bright red streak on the pure white bed sheet. (I'm sorry!)
Taking advantage of her going to the bathroom, I secretly took out all the money on my body and put it in her pants pocket, fleeing the bathroom in a state of embarrassment!
I know I don't have the courage to face her again. I'm afraid one more glance at her will make it difficult to forget her.
I know it's just a transaction with her, a confusion about money and sex.
From that time on, I swore never to touch any virgins again in my life. So beautiful, so desolate.
Until today, I am still feeling guilty. Since I cannot give her tomorrow, why did I steal her most precious treasure.
I'm still regretting... I started to stay away from those dirty places. I know how to love women.
(Intern Editor: Cai Junyi)