Post Date April, 15 2023
That day, Qi Yu was forced to see Mo Ling. Xu Yang wants to break up with Mo Ling, so in order to make her give up, he wants Qi Yu to go. At the moment he saw Mo Ling, he was a bit stunned. She was really beautiful, with a snow-white oval face and sparkling big eyes. She sat by the window, tightly holding a glass of water in her hand.
He embarrassed himself and explained Xu Yang's reason for breaking up. He had a rare opportunity to go abroad. In fact, he knew that Mo Ling was not paying attention, her spirit and eyes were not very focused. She was not a dull woman, and her boyfriend's empathy had already been understood, just wanting to see the final result, but that cowardly man did not even have the courage to see her.
Qi Yu knew something about them. They were college classmates, and later Xu Yang wanted to pursue postgraduate studies. Over the next three years, Mo Ling provided him with tuition and living expenses. Perhaps in Xu Yang's view, his pressure is also great. The financial entanglement has made their love unequal. He is unwilling to fall in love with Mo Ling with a grateful heart, so he fell in love with another woman who made him more relaxed.
Finally, Mo Ling slowly said to Qi Yu, "I have opened a room in a nearby hotel. I originally thought if he came, I would take him there... Do you want to go?
Qi Yu has gone. He is not a man who sits still, and the woman's heart is still shaken at the moment. Just as Mo Ling tearfully exposed her thin body in front of him, his heart suddenly hurt. He couldn't persuade himself to take advantage of the danger, let alone take action against such a sad and painful woman. He wrapped her in a sheet and held her in his arms. He said, 'You can sleep for a while.'. Her eyelashes trembled violently, tears welled up from the corners of her eyes, and then she buried her head in his neck socket, drilling in as if looking for a warmer spot.
Qi Yu has never had such an experience, just holding a woman and letting her fall asleep in his arms. Xu Yang is the most knowledgeable friend Qi Yu has known. Qi Yu has not read many books and came out of his hometown at the age of 16. He has worked a lot of hard labor and now lives a drunken and addicted life watching a nightclub.
Later, Qi Yu occasionally called Mo Ling, and they didn't know what to say. Most of the time, it was blank. In fact, he just wanted to hear her voice. That morning after they parted, he became very missing her, and the longing made him happy and at a loss.
Until one time when he felt like she was about to hang up the phone, he heard her say, 'I'm afraid I can't finish cooking. Are you coming?'? He nodded cheerfully on the phone and said, 'Okay, right away, soon.'.
He changed his clothes nervously in the room, took care of his hair, polished his shoes and sprayed some perfume. He wanted to cover up those vulgar things on his body, and even subconsciously learned Xu Yang's clothes. When he saw himself in the mirror wearing a white shirt, blue jeans, and sneakers, his nose was sore.
She is a college student, she is so beautiful and pure, and he has been dyed gray in the past decade.
That was their second meeting, and her hair was cut short and her face was thin. She put vegetables in his bowl, which were very homely dishes, such as Mapo tofu, stir fried lettuce, Stir-fried tomato and scrambled eggs and crucian carp soup. He added two bowls of rice and ate happily. Suddenly, she asked, 'Are you and Xu Yang classmates?'?
His body shook for a moment, his head buried in his rice bowl and he let out a confused "hmm" sound. She said, 'Where did you sign your job?'? He lied his second lie, the design institute. It turned out that more lies were needed to fulfill a lie. He fabricated his education, his job, and his family background... He wanted himself to be a tall and healthy image in her mind, and he was afraid to reveal his identity, as she would distance himself.
He even said to himself that perhaps he could reach her height and be a man who matched her. He began to go to the bookstore to buy books, and read through the dull and tedious content page by page. He also holds an English textbook for the first day of junior high school while working, and when he encounters pronunciation problems, he goes to ask others.
At that time, Mo Ling worked in two jobs. She worked in a foreign trade company during the day and went to night school as a substitute because she had spent too much money on Xu Yang and needed to repay it.
When he really missed her so much, Qi Yu called Mo Ling and said he would bring an umbrella when it rained tomorrow. Did she say you want to come for dinner? He just said, 'No, I'm busy with work.'.
It turned out that every man would feel timid in front of the woman he loved, afraid that there would be no future between them, so he constantly suppressed, restrained, and pretended.
Once he called her and heard her cough, she fell ill. He finally went to see her. She had a fever of 39 degrees and didn't even eat dinner. He fed her medicine, put a wet towel on her forehead, and went to the kitchen to cook porridge. He saw the books by her bedside, all written in English letters. He flipped through two pages, feeling very gray in his heart.
At night, Mo Ling woke up a bit and saw Qi Yu sitting on the floor, pulling apart the bedding and saying, 'Come up.'. He hesitated for a moment and then lay down next to her in his clothes. She grabbed his arm and rested it on top of it. She wrapped her hand horizontally around his chest and said, 'Thank you.'.
He said, 'Don't do two jobs in the future. Xu Yang sent me money and asked me to pay you back!'!
Qi Yu felt that Mo Ling's tears were dripping on his arm. He knew that she had not forgotten Xu Yang, and she still loved him to this day. But what does it matter? He is willing to accompany her when she is heartbroken, comfort her, heal her wounds, and cross mountains and rivers for her. He has never cherished a person like this, so cautious and careful.
Qi Yu found a job again and played the role of a grizzly bear in the park, which was the hottest summer. He was sweating all over in his thick plush clothes, and when children came to grab his tail, he sometimes stumbled and fell to the ground when he couldn't stand steadily. He got up from the ground, clapped his hands, and jumped up again.
He put his savings and salary in an envelope and handed them to Mo Ling, saying that they were all money returned by Xu Yang. She initially suspected it, but he said that guy just felt sorry for you and didn't dare to face you. Yes, even if she broke up, she had to be told by someone else. Now, of course, the money also needs to be returned to her by someone else, and Mo Ling believed it.
Mo Ling wants to go to school. Previously, she gave up pursuing further education for Xu Yang, but now Xu Yang has repaid her money. With that money, she can just repay her debts and easily go to school. Qi Yu was very supportive upon hearing this. He said, 'If you go to school, Xu Yang will pay for your tuition and living expenses. You used to support him in school, but now he should support you in school.'.
You don't have to be polite to that bad man. Qi Yu said casually.
Since August, Mo Ling has resigned and is preparing to review and take the postgraduate entrance examination at home.
Qi Yu began to work even harder. He played clowns in the park, played cats and dogs, and moved bricks and cement on construction sites... He didn't have many skills, except for labor. At night, he lay scattered on the bed, with Mo Ling in his mind. Those all night long thoughts rushed towards him, making his heart ache deeply. He thought, 'I really can be so great, treating someone well without any need for anything in return.'.
For three years, Qi Yu never saw Mo Ling again. That year, she was admitted to graduate school and went to another city. She only called Qi Yu once and said, 'You asked Xu Yang not to send me money anymore.'.
After she hung up the phone, he walked along the road for a long time, knowing that she was about to start a new life. In that new world, there was no him, and she wanted to empty him out along with those past lives.
Anyway, he thought, really or not, she can finally lead a new life, have a good future and good love... How could he expect her? The distance between them is not just a short distance, but the horizon. He had been suppressing his feelings and knew that there was no possibility between them.
Qi Yu didn't go to the nightclub again. He went to night school and really got a diploma. He applied to a company as a salesperson, wearing a suit and tie, and carrying a briefcase.
When he wakes up at night, he feels dazed and thinks, will they still encounter each other in this lifetime?
They really met, and when she stepped out of the elevator at an industry summit, Qi Yu was completely stunned. After three years of not seeing each other, she was no longer the timid woman who shed tears over her breakup. She was dressed in a capable suit, tied in a bun, and her eyes were burning. He was holding a stack of promotional leaflets for the company's products and scattered them all over the ground. He bent down and frantically went to pick it up, his eyes very damp. She squatted in front of him to help him pick up the information, his head buried very low, and when she put that pile of information in his hand, he didn't say a word to her.
She left, and in order to avoid her seeing him, he went downstairs from the staircase. At the corner, he slowly squatted down, covering his mouth tightly with his hand to prevent himself from crying.
He didn't expect that there was so much energy in his body to love her, and he was filled with heartbreak because he loved her so much.
Now she is even more dazzling, and even if he has become a salesperson, he is too far away from her. He later learned from others that she is now the planning director of a foreign-funded company.
His identity is bleak, his life is bleak, and she should have a better man to love her. He can only withdraw from her life and can only stand at a long distance to look up at her.
When he left the building, he didn't know that Mo Ling was looking for him. When she handed over the information to him, she felt that he looked a bit familiar. After taking a few steps, she suddenly realized that it was him, Qi Yu. When she looked back for him again, he was no longer there.
He doesn't know, she has been looking for him for several years. She went to the design institute he mentioned, but others said there was no such person at all. She had to contact Xu Yang and finally found out Qi Yu's true education and job, as well as the money that Qi Yu gave her. She learned about Qi Yu's feelings for her, but she lost the news of him.
(Intern Editor: Cai Junyi)
