Many pains are chosen by oneself. What kind of choices were made at the beginning, and what consequences will inevitably be borne after years. When I understood these things, I had already decided to let go of my wrong choices.
A year ago, I got married to Jiujiu. On the day of his wedding, he was not happy. His bitter and bitter face made me feel a bit uncomfortable. I worked so hard, but he didn't understand at all. He was snatched by me. Previously, I believed that happiness depended on striving for it. After encountering him for a long time, I moved my mind and disregarded the feelings of my friends. I managed to snatch him by countless means. I used to feel guilty towards her, but as a proud person, I didn't lower my head or say a word of apology to her. She sadly disappeared from our world.
I am not a happy mistress, my husband doesn't like me. After I married him with a child in my arms, he always treated me coldly, and my mother-in-law usually didn't give me a good face. Every time I feel wronged, I constantly comfort myself, as long as I wait for the child to be born. My mother-in-law always brings her ex-wife's children over to play. The children are not sensible and their words are particularly hurtful. I was pointed at and scolded by a child, feeling very uncomfortable.
When I can't bear it anymore, I will complain in front of the child for a long time, but he behaves coldly and asks me not to argue with the child. His words made me suddenly feel that my previous efforts were really not worth it. I love him so much, but he doesn't feel it at all. Afterwards, I fell into a world of one person. Although we all lived together, I never felt happy. A person shuts themselves in their room, listening to music and surfing the internet, wasting time. Don't care about their coldness towards me, don't care about their eyes.
There are many unexpected potholes hidden in time. I thought that as long as I had children, I could salvage this situation. But I didn't expect that the child in my stomach would suddenly leave me. It made me lose my last chip and hope.
When a child in their belly experiences miscarriage, there is no warning, but they feel a bit bloated and painful. I asked my mother-in-law to accompany me to the hospital, but she said she wanted to accompany my ex-wife's child, so I had to take a taxi alone. On the road, there was a traffic jam and my stomach was getting more and more cramped. I fainted in the car and by the time I woke up, I was already lying in the hospital. When I heard that the child was gone, I couldn't help but shed tears.
After this incident, both Jiujiu and his mother-in-law began to improve their attitude towards me. They may be feeling guilty, after all, I am their child in my belly. However, for a long time, he still refused to touch me every night. He said he could live with me, but his emotions and body would always belong to his ex-wife. At night, when I hinted to him, he sulked and took something to sleep on the sofa in the living room. Every time my mother-in-law sees him sleeping on the sofa, she doesn't give me a good face the next day, and all kinds of sharp and harsh words stimulate me. She must still hate me for ruining his son's family.
Half a year later, he never touched me, and we never had a fight. Our marriage, not arguing does not mean that I am happy, because it means that he has never had me in his heart, and he doesn't care about everything about me. When conflicts arise, we will only have a cold war and no communication. When our anger subsides, we can slowly speak a few words. In these painful days, I gradually began to realize how naive and hurtful my original decision was.
I know I was wrong, but everything is too late. Those ugly scars can no longer be washed away from my life. I hope my departure can help me overcome our mutual unhappiness. Back then, I loved him, the kind of person who loved him cleanly, but I didn't understand that the essence of love should be mutual willingness. It's never like one person's hard work can make another person fall in love with themselves. Happiness is now not simply achieved by striving for it, nor can it be achieved through countless designs.
Report to the third party:
Xiao San! Being a lover requires capital, either young and beautiful, intelligent and capable, or understanding. However, a lover is not necessarily the dish of an infidelity man. At best, it is just a licorice slice used by an infidelity man to stimulate and relieve fatigue after a boring marriage. Moreover, as a woman, the mistress is also a woman, and there will definitely be a day when her appearance ages and her youth passes away. "There are mountains outside the mountains, and there are people outside the people," in the eyes of an infidelity man, A lover is actually a piece of dog shit, whose weight is far less important than that of a wife.
It is undeniable that men who cheat have reasons for their wives. They either ignore their husbands, do not know how to dress up, or do not want to make progress. However, even so, in the hearts of cheating men, they always know that if there is no scumbag wife in their family, their career will not be brilliant. Even if they betray their wives, they still have guilt and apology in their hearts. If it weren't for their wife's arrogance and irrationality, Unknowingly pushing her husband out, the vast majority of cheating husbands do not voluntarily seek divorce. In his view, marriage is always the same as the original, and changing a woman to be his wife may not necessarily bring back the same happiness and happiness.
The animal instinct of a man is destined to love the new and dislike the old, just as when his wife changes from a young girl in her prime to a yellow faced woman, he goes hunting for beauty. Similarly, when the mistress also grows old and their charm fades, they still continue to search for the next younger prey, and it seems more heartless and thorough to shake off the mistress. Moreover, extramarital affairs are also emotions and have their own natural laws of development. There are also periods of first love, passion, adjustment, transition, and aging, and they cannot withstand the test of time. Therefore, infidelity men are destined to never die fishing in a mistress's tree. What they want is a large forest full of vitality, and the old cow always likes to eat tender grass!
Women must learn to cherish themselves and love themselves!