Post Date April, 15 2023
A year ago, I married Jiujiu.
On the wedding day, he was not happy, and his bitter and bitter face made me feel a bit uncomfortable. I worked so hard, but he didn't understand at all. "I grabbed him. I used to believe that happiness depended on striving for it. After meeting him for a long time, I moved my mind and, regardless of my friend's feelings, tried every means to grab him.". I used to feel guilty for her, but the proud me didn't let me bow my head or say a sorry word to her. She sadly disappeared from our world.
"I'm not a happy junior, and my husband doesn't like me.". After I married him with a child in my arms, he always treated me coldly, and my mother-in-law usually didn't give me a good face. Every time I feel aggrieved, I constantly comfort myself as long as I wait for the baby to be born. Mother-in-law always brings her ex-wife's children over to play. The children are not sensible, and their words are particularly hurtful. I was pointed at and scolded by a child and felt very uncomfortable.
When I can't bear it anymore, I will complain in front of him for a long time, but he behaves coldly and asks me not to argue with children. His words immediately made me feel that my initial efforts were really not worth it. I love him so much, but he doesn't feel it at all. After that, I fell into a world of one person. Although we all lived together, I never felt happy. A person shuts himself in his room, listening to music and surfing the internet, wasting his time. Don't care about their indifference to me, don't care about their eyes.
There are many potholes hidden in time that we cannot anticipate. I thought as long as I had children, I could save this situation. But I didn't expect that the child in my stomach would suddenly leave me. Let me lose my last chips and hope.
"When a child in her belly aborts, there is no warning, but she feels a little bloating and pain in her stomach.". "I asked my mother-in-law to accompany me to the hospital, but she said she wanted to accompany her ex-wife's children, so I had to take a taxi alone.". "There was a traffic jam on the road, my stomach was getting cramped, and I fainted in the car. When I woke up, I was already lying in the hospital.". When I heard that the child was gone, my tears couldn't help brushing and flowed down.
After this incident, both Jiujiu and her mother-in-law began to improve their attitude towards me. They may be guilty, after all, I am their child in my belly. However, for a long time, he still didn't want to touch me every night. He said he could live with me, but his feelings and body would always belong to his ex-wife. At night, when I suggested to him, he sulked and took something to sleep on the sofa in the living room. Every time my mother-in-law sees him sleeping on the sofa, she doesn't give me a good face the next day, and all kinds of harsh and harsh words stimulate me. She must still hate me for ruining his son's family.
Half a year later, he never touched me, and we never quarreled. "In our marriage, not arguing does not mean that I am happy, because it means that he has never had me in his heart, and he doesn't care about everything about me.". "When conflicts arise, there will only be a cold war between us, without any communication. When our anger subsides, we can slowly speak a few words.". In these painful days, I gradually began to realize how naive and hurtful my original decision was.
I know I was wrong, but it's too late for everything. Those ugly scars can no longer be washed away from my life. I hope my departure can help me out of our mutual unhappiness. In those days, I loved him, the kind of love that was pure and clean, but at the beginning, I didn't understand that the essence of love should be consensual, and it's never that one person's hard work can make another person fall in love with themselves. Happiness is also now not simply achieved by striving for it, nor can it be achieved through thousands of designs.
